When the memories kicked in (John-A-Geddon 2008), I thought I should apply for my Doctorate to be changed from Theology to Stupidology. Things I would never have done once, where now my staple. Attitudes, actions and thought patterns once foreign were the only things that filled my head.
Looking back, I can see a pattern of small decisions and inconsistencies that added up to big disasters. The things that I had suffered as a child and repressed for over 40 years had induced Post Traumatic Stress in such a way that my life, health and intimate relationships would never be the same again.